As usual... I've been thinking... about those I've lost, but also about those I have. I miss those I've lost so much!
I miss them, having them such a short time, but still so blessed by their presence. My heart hurts so much sometimes when I think, " A year ago...." but as I start to feel my heart open and bleed out, I stop it and thank my good God for those I still have. Unfortunately, we all get to meet this "deadline" or as I like to think of it.. an "appointment".
I go there a lot.. but not as much as I use to. I hang on to the loss ... a bit... but what good does it do? The loss is great, but so was the love. So, I decide to enjoy the LOVE that I still have, for the time I have. So much we take for granted when we should "don't miss now". I still miss them a bit like I've lost a chunk of my heart, a piece they will always hold, because they only gave to me... I think too about those who I lost a piece of my heart to, those who were not worthy, and some who took it, without permission, and it still makes me go back to why I love four-leggeds so much... they seem to only give...love, unconditional love.... what we so desperately need... From them, I am a better person, from them I grow and learn all the things God wanted me to learn so that I can love other people. Here's what they taught me...
Be cautious but willing
Be willing and trusting
Be trusting and loving
Be loving and faithful
Be faithful and patient
Be patient and understanding
Be understanding.... because you just don't know the day your Master had in order to provide for you. ...
...then, be SO DARN HAPPY TO SEE THEM THAT YOU CAN HARDLY NOT PEE!!
3 comments:
Hello my sweet friend. I think I know how you are feeling. Dare I say, I think like that alot too. Can't be helped at this time of the year when all the reminders to get together with 'friends & family' are constant and every where we turn. I know they say we keep the missing ones alive in our hearts, but I would take the real thing if given a choice. Yes, I would.
Your pics are really nice and its good to have those freeze-framed moments to glance at again and again and just recall them when they were flesh & blood.
Loving you then, today and tomorrow. xo me
Wonderful pictures! Wow, looks like your having a winter. . . Just a dusting down this way.
I am so thankful for what I have now and have to be present in the moment.
Loss will always be with us. . . unfortunately more and more in this aging process. We miss them, but have to celebrate the time we enjoyed with them.
Toast to New Year.
KJF
Are you STILL thinking?????
con amore, meeeeee
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