As usual... I've been thinking... about those I've lost, but also about those I have. I miss those I've lost so much!
I miss them, having them such a short time, but still so blessed by their presence. My heart hurts so much sometimes when I think, " A year ago...." but as I start to feel my heart open and bleed out, I stop it and thank my good God for those I still have. Unfortunately, we all get to meet this "deadline" or as I like to think of it.. an "appointment".
I go there a lot.. but not as much as I use to. I hang on to the loss ... a bit... but what good does it do? The loss is great, but so was the love. So, I decide to enjoy the LOVE that I still have, for the time I have. So much we take for granted when we should "don't miss now". I still miss them a bit like I've lost a chunk of my heart, a piece they will always hold, because they only gave to me... I think too about those who I lost a piece of my heart to, those who were not worthy, and some who took it, without permission, and it still makes me go back to why I love four-leggeds so much... they seem to only give...love, unconditional love.... what we so desperately need... From them, I am a better person, from them I grow and learn all the things God wanted me to learn so that I can love other people. Here's what they taught me...
Be cautious but willing
Be willing and trusting
Be trusting and loving
Be loving and faithful
Be faithful and patient
Be patient and understanding
Be understanding.... because you just don't know the day your Master had in order to provide for you. ...
...then, be SO DARN HAPPY TO SEE THEM THAT YOU CAN HARDLY NOT PEE!!
